Time heals all. We all know that expression. Even when I'm listening to Leona Lewis' "Better in Time", I'm soulfully singing it like Beyonce in the shower (well, not exactly like "Queen B") but I'm only half-heartedly singing it. Okay, you probably don't want to know about my random jumbles of thought while I sing in the shower. But my point is, it's hard to genuinely understand the gravity of this common go-to phrase when you're focused on the present. Ugh, I'm going to be incredibly cliché and bring up another one of these proverbs that we all know and love: Keep Moving Forward.
P.S. Bear in mind my stream of consciousness writing. You know that shirt "I literally do not care at all". I'm trying to spiritually wear that shirt whenever I'm blogging so I can feel more comfortable with being more open. I'm a Scorpio, what can I say? (Oh, the irony).
Back to reality. I remember in high school during the first week of our junior year, kids were complaining and whining while slumping towards AP English class about their first essay topic. We all have that insanely serious professor that looks like a thumb and will literally assign a 300-page theoretical book to thoroughly annotate by the next class. This was Mr.V. I never had him but his first essay question to scare his students sh+itless was "What is more important. The future or the present?". The past was completely out of the question.
Yes, the past shapes our identity and transforms us in ways unimaginable and even in an unconscious way. But it's human nature to constantly focus on reinventing ourselves--whether it's through a new hairstyle with beet-colored highlights or through an RA-run meditation in your dorm's screening room. But why?
We go through persistent transitions to constantly reinvent ourselves in order to obtain a future self that fits the mold of what we aspire to be. You can't necessarily achieve that without focusing on the present. (I'm getting incredibly "spiritual" and intense, I know.) I just think that in light of recent events, it's hard to focus on improving yourself and looking ahead when all you have is now. But maybe that's a good thing.
Hitting that end goal and proudly filling up your lungs with an enormous breath is cathartic. To experience those small moments of almost-relapses of randomly bursting into uncontrollable tears of laughter or sadness at times makes it all the more empowering. So many quotes of cheesy lines are just flooding my brain right now. I blame my spontaneous splurge in downloading every "Daily Quote" App on my phone. I mean, whatever works for you, right?
It may be painful, exciting, exhausting, but I think enjoying those moments or just acknowledging that you're changing with every moment is important because you'll really grow as a person and live a more realistic, un-sheltered raw form of life. Ignorance isn't always bliss. It just prevents you from becoming a stronger person and there's no way to live life without truly enjoying everything it throws at you--even if it happens to feel more like a truck slammed into your body.